Saturday, December 31, 2016

Last Meals of 2016

These salad days, I measure my life's minorly pedantic "milestones" (celebratory or otherwise mass-public-association) by the meals I take, rather than what I buy / purchase in exchange for cashmoney. No further explanation beyond I'd be able to feed myself rather than treat myself to plastic trinkets - which I still adore, mind you hahaha.

But also a constant reminder of my declining health, taking into serious considerations "We Are What We Eat" ... and I need to be eating "healthier", of course alongside my current "exercising regime" - to not just loose this damn belly, but also, yet o get healthy ... well, as healthy as I can get lah :p

Braised Duck rice last lunch of 2016 #eatlife #henglife

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Home cooked last dinner of 2016! #henglife #eatlife

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Tuesday, December 27, 2016

Of Coughing Blood and False Hopes

The “last time” I coughed blood, was somewhen 1999-2000, when I was in Vietnam to film my 4th feature length film. I remembered one fine morning, waking up and prepping to head to a shoot location in the early morning, of coughing bright red blood into the hotel’s sink. Very much like drama serials, and back then, I laughed it off and even told my producers about it, as if it was a “badge of honour”, without thinking about the case or consequence. I had a bad case of “invincibility” then - or rather the younger arrogant me felt it was nothing to my hearty body!

i remembered being told to go see doctors, but I shooed off the notion, because we were filming that day!

I remembered in the middle of the set (which was to resemble a “bombed out house/home” of a civilian - one of the main actresses - which I had spent tons of effort on), while prepping for a next shot, I was told I was needed at the waiting area by the director(s), to which I left strict instructions of what next to do (which I doubt if anyone of my team followed anyway - why do you think I “cough-blood”? LOL), and went to promptly.

The next thing I knew, on arriving, I was grabbed by two guys and pushed down into a lone chair sitting in the middle under shelter, and one of the producers appeared and said, that since I won’t go to the doctors, they brought a doctor on set to examine me hahahaha.

I relented and gave in to the examination.

I remembered as my blood pressure was taken, I was pointing and shouting at my guys to go / move certain things too LOL

The second time I had coughed blood, was yesterday afternoon. White a health amount of blood too, mixed in with my saliva, maybe a bit of phlegm.

"Walk-in", not "by appointment" ... No, 2016 is not done with me yet :/ #henglife

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The blood letting stopped after than, even in the next morning. But knowing the breaking down of my body - since Stroke in 2010 - and of my lack of maintaining this frail body, I had to be sure.

The doctor at the polyclinic assured me it was slight inflammation of my throat, due to heat-ness, and was given pills to suck, and gargle liquids. I think he was surprised the I did not need a medical certificate / M.C. hahahaha I’ve never needed them as I “work” from home, but I would understand if this is what folks look for / ask for when they visit the doctor, as often as I do hahahaha

The doctor also told me to take ice cream or honey, to help sooth the throat, to which I said I had diabetes and instead I asked for yogurt instead, to which he agreed with. He obviously forgot and told me to get ice cream shortly afters hahaha

But what really got me today, was the “false hope” I was granted a split-second!

Every clinic visit, you’d need to have your blood pressure taken, along with height and weight … and the read out on my weighing machine, was miraculously 2 kilograms lesser than when I was there a weeks ago! OH MAN! IF I KNEW I WOULD’VE EXERCISED MORE EARLIER!

But of course, the dream was shattered when the nurse (taking my measurements) cursed under her breath that the machine was broken, and upon weighing at the next machine, the weight resumed what it had been before.

THAT got me down more than coughing blood did, tho LOL

Christmas Eve Makan

Sunday, December 25, 2016

Making Christmas on TOYSREVIL

I don’t HAVE to make a Christmas Greeting, I just WANT to, and it’s always FUN to dream up and conceptualize stuff like these, because they help my mind go beyond the everyday editorialising of the blog and personal tasks, and via a semblance of creativity, make something “new” happen.

The glitter globe wass made by my Brother from last year, while the shiny paper background was found thru dad’s old stuff mum was clearing earlier in the week. Snagged smaller sized toys that have been howling around my work desk, and the videos featured below were made.

Getting reacquainted with the iMovie, and am enjoying a new streak of FUN making lil’ slideshow movies again, so there’s that to keep my mind involved once more! Now to have them make me some goddamnedMONEY to survive, for pete’s sake! LOL

Happy Christmas from TOYSREVIL, everyone! :) Lego tree made by my Brother Benny!

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HAPPY CHRISTMAS & a HAPPY NEW YEAR ahead from TOYSREVIL to all friends and readers! :)

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Over the years, I’ve oft taken the time and effort to “look back” at the year, and what has transpired - most times in an effort to produce blog-posts / readable articles of my work and life, as it were … but this year, perhaps I’d do well to MOVE FORWARD instead of spending too much time BACK.

Simple reality = I don’t even know if anyone reads my reminiscing, and as much as my daily blog hits has been the highest it has been for the past decade I have been blogging (not on THIS blog, of course :p), I have not had a paid ad in half a year, or more … so maybe effort needs to be retained and recalibrated, to be able to sustain a future I really hope to be having - which at this point, is simply “SURVIVAL”.

More on this when my thoughts are clearer, and I do to react to just “fear” and concern for my own well-being hahaha

So perhaps a “BestNine” work? The above is for my personal Instagram - which worries naught when it comes to “Likes”, while featured below is my TOYSREVIL-IG, which shows what folks liked to see, and as well the reality that a single picture struggles to go beyond 100 x Likes, so these are beyond the norm LOL

Getting Healthier To Live

Another day another doctor's appointment :/ #henglife

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One of the four medical maladies which led to my Stroke back in 3rd quarter 2010, was/is DIABETES. And I have since been a diabetic, under medication and daily insulin injections since … and from the medical report today, seems I’ve screwed up my body further, with records from ‘7’ points up to ‘8’ now, and for folks who know diabetes, that a heck of a NO-NO, and as far as I am concerned, “HELL-NO”!

I blame no one but myself for becoming this state. DIET is useless alone, and I need to EXERCISE beyond abstaining from SUGAR.

So it’s BYE-BYE Hazelnut Coffee, and daily sit-ups and walks … and just the other day, I did something I’ve not done since my Stroke in 2010 … I JOGGED! Meaning, wicked my pace beyond my normal “power walking”, lift my fits instead of shuffling, and jogged!

Granted, it might have been a scant few meters, and I was excessively slow (as slow as I have been in my dreams, i sh*t you naught - i drag myself around in my dreams….), but hope, in time I’ll be able to pick up the pace, and maybe in the midst of it all, BE HEALTHIER.

Actually, I can’t WISH to do it… I HAVE to do it. Save your tough-love and hard-words for someone who it’ll work on. I don't want to say it or hear it, but just DO IT.

A Wake-up call AGAIN for the new year!

I cannot deny hazelnut flavoured coffee. That is all. #henglife

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Sunday, December 11, 2016

Dec 11, 2016

Too much for Sunday breakfast? But i's hungry... :) #eatlife #henglife

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I cannot deny hazelnut flavoured coffee. That is all. #henglife

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Dec 10, 2017

Saturday Baked Beans Lunch, becoz not to keen to eat fantastically alone :) #eatlife #henglife

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missing month of november

...the last post was dated "Oct 27", and over a month has passed and November had but faded into obscurity, alas, and I'd leave the dates here empty and unfulfilled, hence ... and it might well be a harder effort to track back the instagrammed images, as I have a gnawing habit of not leaving dates - not because I chose to, but because I ALwAYS FORGET TO! True Story, bruh...

The truth of it all, and the existence of this personal blog, was to hold instagrammed snaps of my day(s), with "images" (and words in the captions), versus wordswordstypedwords (like THIS post lol), which I deal with every single day as I author my multiple blogs, but once in a while feel the need to yakkityyak / whine / vent / opine beyond my usual public blogs, so on and so forth ....

AND also a visual record of my life, as mundane and non-glamourous as it is, versus the lookgreat generation of faux public perception presented online for all and sundry! Hey, I'm not knocking it, as I do enjoy my escapades into the www as well, and wander thru everyone else's life, and smile at the purdy girls, and blingbling at the nice stuff, kaching-kaching echoing in interspace, ever oblivious to the reality outside my bedroom window.

So, yeah, over a month's worth of images shall remain at their IG-source - not that November had been a month of daily snaps, as I'd felt the strain of the year clawing at my ability to "share", because some tears are meant for myself, and not the general public who might not would not who am i kidding do not give a hoot.

The downfall of the www, are folks who think otherwise. Everyone is just flickering on each other's up or down stream ... isn't it all so glorious?